A Poem of Pain in Loss

This week’s post is a poem I wrote about the pain of broken community. Whether communion be broken by close friend, family member, or society person, we all can relate to one who feels hurt by (what she feels is) betrayal, who yet refuses to let go.

Lamentation

With jagged spoon, you gouged my aorta

quartered an important organ, slopped it on the sidewalk,

mortal, palpitating, hanging by shreds

leaving

part of me

dead

 

We are each other; I am you; you are me

Communal veins and arteries

 

Until

my silent pleas, my unheard cries

died on lips

skinned

with

brimstone

when I saw you

shunned.

 

The Ban                is             done.

 

Quivering at time’s grave,

my sulfur tears

pour for the light terror

that thrills you in its grand resolution

of dissociation

of the mystery of community,

where we sip each other’s blood.

 


So how could you break faith?

 

I am a woman because

your relieving amputation,

your cauterization,

your risky prevention,

is my suffering anguish.

 

I will forever agonize over the murdered Now

and hope for you

through quiet love you didn’t ask for.

 

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2 thoughts on “A Poem of Pain in Loss”

    1. Thanks for asking. Yes, I’m fine. Nevertheless, pains like these are real, and this week I was working at putting words to them. I think it’s so important to be able to lament. Sometimes in Christian societies, we don’t do “lament” very well, while non-Christian artists, it seems, deal exclusively with the human condition and our fallen world. For me, I want to be able to honestly express the lamentable parts of our experience. This time I wrote a very personal poem about what it can feel like when a close friend turns their back on God.

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